my gut feeling takes me in so many directions. either way I have to move and get out of this house. so its one or the other.
here I have weighed out the situation:
Im still deep in thought as to whether I go thru with personal training school ($5400 for tuition) for 6 months, live up in a city I hate, get certified, and work a job for 1 yr up in the same city, making a difference in ppls lives, getting paid well, but being miserable cause of where I am. and being at least 10,000 or more in debt due to loans and bills. then move out to portland after I have saved up and have great work experience (hope I dont become a yuppie), and then pursue teaching snowboarding to kids, and work as a personal trainer til I can afford snowboard instructor school in NZ, so that I can teach around the world like I been dreaming for 10 yrs. and of course I will continue to bodybuild and help put veganbodybuilding on the map
get out of debt now by selling my car, get rid of almost all my posessions (which I would love to do), move out to Portland and be car-free. be able to train and eat with other vegans, take an online course ($500) get my personal trainer certification (if I wanted to be a personal trainer), work a shitty minimum wage job, but I will be happy cause of where I am, the hobbies Im doing, and the ppl Im with,...or I could work up on the snowboard mountain having a wonderful time:) either way im gonna ride mt hood. save up and then go do the NZ snowboard instructor school so I can teach around the world. and of course I will continue to bodybuild and help put veganbodybuilding on the map
it isnt obvious to me which path to take. both require a big amount of inner strength to move out on my own and do.
option 1: be miserable cause of the location and will be greatly in debt and have to commute a lot, study really hard (Im so sick of school), and work work work work but eventually I will have lots of money and able to afford the things I Want to do, but who knows how much time I will spend doing this...at least a year and a half
but I will feel good cause I am helping ppl get and stay in shape the vegan way
option 2: be extremely poor, move to portland "on a whim" although I been planning to move there for years, and finally ride mt hood. I will teach lil kids to snowboard (best feeling ever), and continue to help others stay in shape the vegan way through veganbodybuilding.com and example. I might even be able to influence the lil grommetts (beginner snowboarders) to go vegan or be knowledgeable about it. I will also be able to train with Robert (veganbodybuilder), visit the beach, the mountain, the forest, waterfalls, national parks, and get around on foot/bicycle/great public transportation. theres no sales tax either, and theres lots of vegan restaurants.
so do I be miserable now, cause I will get a degree and it will pay off in the end. to get towards my goals (NZ)?
be happy now but really poor, no degree (backup plan), move to portland and work towards my goals (NZ)??