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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#91 Postby zinzen » Fri Jul 17, 2009 6:56 pm

What is this a random video post now :D
Another night with no dope and nothing to do for entertainment, wifes about to go to work, and I am sposed to be at a friends doing the wash, but alas I sit here, bored, and I got no food.
But I could complain for hours, I think I shall just state that today I did step 3 and now its on to #4, the personal inventory.
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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#92 Postby zinzen » Sat Jul 18, 2009 12:41 am

Another successful night of not taking drugs, find it a curious thought that I went from a steak and chicken patty loving drunk drugged out violent skinhead to a straight edge vegan treehugger, what the fuck

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#93 Postby Vegan Joe » Sat Jul 18, 2009 1:23 am

Selfanalysis can be a bit scary, if not a whole lot. Loving and excepting oneself for who one is, is key, along with a desire for progression even if if feels like retrograde at times.
:lachmal: :boxer: :zunge: :popcorn: :D
Did I say that??? Oops dementia in retrograde. Gotta have that checked again, with what else, lets see, I forgot. Ah the pain will remind me, I'll remember later. I hope.
Thanks! :D

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#94 Postby Vegan Joe » Sat Jul 18, 2009 2:50 am

I hope to always remind myself:
That if I am having a bad day,
I can blame no one but myself.
Not the guy who backed in to my car, or the girl who left me, or etc..
The real truth is:
I am the one who is choosing to think that way.
No one is putting those thoughts in my head but me, not the car, the girl, etc..
No one is thinking for me.
I am the one doing the thinking.
I am the one who is choosing to think that way.
So if you're having a bad day it's your fault.
:D :D :D

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#95 Postby xveganjoshx » Sat Jul 18, 2009 3:29 am

zinzen wrote:Another successful night of not taking drugs, find it a curious thought that I went from a steak and chicken patty loving drunk drugged out violent skinhead to a straight edge vegan treehugger, what the fuck

This made me LOL.

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#96 Postby beforewisdom » Sat Jul 18, 2009 6:58 am

zinzen wrote:I will always be a supporter of marijuana rights.
I agree with what was said but not with every case of course


Some people can handle having a drink other people can't. That is probably true with marijuana use as well.

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#97 Postby beforewisdom » Sat Jul 18, 2009 7:09 am

zinzen wrote:We are planning on moving in a year though to Portland just toget outta the east coast climate killing me. That is as long as we can both work there


If you have SAD ( Seasonal Affective Disorder ) the North West may not be a better choice for you as it is often overcast and rainy in parts. Moving is a great idea. In addition to getting you closer to more sunny days it will also get you away from your old friends.

I have a friend who had a similar situation to yours. She quit the drugs, but felt that she had to get away from her friends to make it last, so she moved which she swears helped her a lot.

Psychologists have done mountains of studies and experts of all kinds throughout history have noticed that people become like the people they hang out with. I've noticed that with myself in the experience of my life too.

If you want to find momentum for a positive change start hanging out with people who are living the way you want to be.

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#98 Postby beforewisdom » Sat Jul 18, 2009 7:42 am

Tom;

You had a useful insight in that you used drugs to avoid facing problems in your life. A social worker friend of mine told me that is fairly common among addicts. In fact the AA people have a nickname for someone who is sober, but who hasn't learned how to face their problems. They call them "dry drunks". The point being that getting sober is just part of recovery. Learning how to face problems is the other part.

Cognitive therapy has been proven to be more effective than medication for depression, insomnia and a number of other psychological issues. I've never had any in a professional setting, but I've read a number of books on the subject. One thing that sticks out to me is that it teaches and empowers you to handle many problems yourself. It is sort of like taking care of your teeth. You will always need to go a dentist, but you can do a lot for yourself by brushing and flossing.

My favorite book on the subject is "Guide To Rational Living" by Dr. Albert Ellis, the psychologist who invented it.

Dr. Ellis kept learning new things over the years and he significantly changed the book several times. Make sure you read the 1997 (final) edition. I also recommend that you start with chapter 20 to get Dr Ellis' most current view on what he thinks are the most powerful issues in changing your life:

http://tinyurl.com/guidetorationalliving

One thing to remember is that effective as it is, cognitive therapy is like working out. You will not get results doing it just a few times. You have to keep on applying it over and over again just like exercise, but like exercise, if you do it regularly you will become one strong mofo.

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#99 Postby zinzen » Sat Jul 18, 2009 9:19 am

A nice way to start your morning, go to pay a bill to find you are shit ass broke, good stuff.
Man I am starved and I got no dough, what a shot to the pooper.
I need me some coffee, I dont know what it is about dope and coffee, at least I didnt start smoking ciggs again. There is just something nice about coffee and soy milk in da morn.
Thanks again for all that reads and posts, it really does keep me accountable for my actions, and all knows that shits a good thing.
Peace be with all on this Sat morn.

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#100 Postby DaN » Sat Jul 18, 2009 10:36 am

A good day to you too squire

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#101 Postby zinzen » Sun Jul 19, 2009 12:24 am

I swear I laid down at 8 pm to nap because of a headache, hoping sleep would kill it naturally ( I am kinda scared to even take tylenol, I was known to abuse all forms of pills) it is now 1:30 am and I am wide awake with a pounding skullfuck of a headache. ARRRRRR

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#102 Postby Vegan Joe » Sun Jul 19, 2009 12:45 am

Going "cold turkey" is always a first hand experience. Hang on to the roller coaster ride cause here we go.
Might want to go easy on the coffee, until your natural rhythms reach equilibrium.
Also these symptoms you talk about also parallel caffine withdrawal.
Just thinking out loud. :)
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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#103 Postby Vegan Joe » Sun Jul 19, 2009 12:51 am

Got yourself a one a day vitamin?
Every other day works just as well.
Last ya twice as long.

Happiness is a personal choice!
I am the sole source of all my sadness and joy.


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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#104 Postby zinzen » Sun Jul 19, 2009 2:51 pm

Another day half gone, headache still hardcore. Oh well, just came back from dog days at the botanical gardens, good fun for sure.
I am still amazed day in and out that I can laugh and be silly and have a good time without being fucked up.
Good times had by all.

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The world is divided between peasants and kings
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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#105 Postby veggieprincess » Sun Jul 19, 2009 3:05 pm

aaaw. Well that is great to here! I think you'll totally be the same person as far as the GOOD stuff that made you YOU.

Proud of you zinny! :D
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