Vegan Bodybuilding & Fitness

130.2
45 min - 10% incline 4.0 mph..

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I wish I could do 4.0 on the treadmill!

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I do because I can. I can because I want to. I want to because you said I couldn't.

I don't make excuses... I make results

If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you

my eating disorder has taken hold and ive been eating truvia with cinnamon. i confessed in a text to my coach. waiting for him to text back and yell. my only lame excuse is that i have no other joys in life aside from food.

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I feel you on that. Is how I got to 270 lbs. Granted I am every closer to losing that 100 lbs I mean really close I still struggle with boredom eating, emotional eating and omg that looks good so I will eat it. Crocheting and reading help but silly me I don't have a hook at work and well the only reading content in the house is romance novels or Rachel Ray's magazine..... I don't see an issue with cinnamon it is yummy but never had truvia. I usually go for the sugar jar lol

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I do because I can. I can because I want to. I want to because you said I couldn't.

I don't make excuses... I make results

If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you

not sure how i keep going with this when i want to give up on life in general. i guess shame.

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Hugs!

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I do because I can. I can because I want to. I want to because you said I couldn't.

I don't make excuses... I make results

If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you

Hang in there!

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Reinvent yourself. You are not what you think you are: fat kids always a fat kid (that is just the fat kid clinging on for dear life - let the kid go! even though you live at home, you are not that kid now!). Look at you in the mirror! You are awesome!

This is just a fleeting moment of weakness (or just plain fatigue from all the work of lifting, eating, cardio, sleeping, repeat). It will pass. Do not let a non-calorie sweetener stop you! Unfortunately it is another addictive chemical that will take work to break away from. Keep working on it girl! One foot in front of another. Throw the truvia away! That stuff will hold onto water in your body! and the alcoholic sugar will not burn easily and put nasty gunk in your fuel tank/metabolism. You will make yourself into a clean machine, and burn brightly!

Don't give up! Hang in there. I know it's tough; I've been through some huge changes this year and you have to go out and find things that bring you joy. Don't let food be the only thing that makes you happy; it just creates a nasty cycle.

You look great in your pics, by the way. Awesome legs

It's a sweetener... I think it has something like 75% fewer calories than sugar.

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With that said, I too am having a bad day.

It is suppose to be my off day - and all I seem to be doing is sleeping! My body is so wore down. I am trying not to eat things - a small bowl of salsa and chips so far, instead of my salad and protein shake! I grabbed a mango peach coconut water that I got on a whim yesterday at Whole Foods seems to be taking the edge of me bingeing everything in site! That and seeing your post! So thank you for that! I am now inspired to NOT do what emotionally, and probably physically too, I want to do! I shall 'Hang in There' as Robert has suggest to do!

Gaia and Jungle I adore you both! Strong determined women you are and you have been a big help to me these past couple months. I cheer you on whole heartedly! You both have this!

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I do because I can. I can because I want to. I want to because you said I couldn't.

I don't make excuses... I make results

If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you

Thanks everyone. Gaia on the one hand its nice to hear about you going through the same and overcoming it...on the other hand I wish there were people in real life who could relate to me. everyone gives me a hard time one way or another, whether it be because i only eat vegan, or because im on a cutting diet, or because i wont have a glass of wine, or because i need to spend two hours at the gym. or why cant i go out to dinner. and yes we are doing something that very few people can do, but at the same time there are many times when i wish i just had a more normal life. normal relationship with food, normal relationships period. id like to be able to sit through a pharmaceutical luncheon at work and have the sandwiches that they are serving rather than have to lug all my food in in a USPS bin. or look forward to sunday dinner with my family. but of course they would have to start serving vegan food first. really this diet and exercise thing isnt a huge deal. yeah its hard, but people all over the world are starving. there is no reason why i cant do 1545 calories a day 6 meals a day for the next five weeks and only use 3 truvia a day. i think today really truly scared me into getting my shit together. whether or not the truvia is what is making my weight hang onto 130 im not sure but its a signal that i dont have complete control as i should. my coach hasnt texted back anything encouraging and thats what i deserve to think about what ive done. for the most part ive done as he has said except for going overboard on the cheats and the sweetened and i have had results, and im pretty much were i should be up to this point. but im just also nervous about my future in general. the path i have chosen has isolated me from most female friendships (of course my best friend has been nothing but supportive and awesome etc), and the only males interested in me are juiceheads or guys who think i can get them into shape. time with my family is shot because it centers around food and the discussion that follows (the same discussion every single time, even though no one remembers but me) i guess i just feel like all areas of my life are thankless at this point. my dad asked me the other day if i have any other interests that dont revolve around my appearance....which means that i am being completely misunderstood. even so ive done the whole intellectual thing (went to a top tier school for college and grad school, spent time and energy pretending to care about politisc, and its basically worthelss and im drowning in debt and will never own my own home or be independent). i guess i just need to be confident that that will change. i feel like the weeks never end and i have not a second to myself, but on the weekends especially at night theres nothing to do except think about how alone i am. even if i had a brother or sister that would be something. but there is a huge generation gap between myself and my parents and all aunts and uncles. i want to have my own family but how am i supposed to do that when every guy i meet is ridiculous?

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Hugs! I think we all feel like this to. I know I have many times. I am here for you!

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I do because I can. I can because I want to. I want to because you said I couldn't.

I don't make excuses... I make results

If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you

Hey jungle, sorry to read that times are hard for you just now. I relate to quite a few things in your post. It sucks lugging food about everywhere for fitness, and it sounds like we have the same attitude towards when people are hostile towards the vegan diet. Friends can leave and stuff but it's worse with family because it feels like you have to keep explaining yourself all the time. It's certainly made me detach from certain friends and I try to avoid family get-togethers so much.

Online support isn't the same as having like minded people in your life, I totally agree with that.

Recently I found an awesome vegan group on facebook and have been to a couple of meetups recently and am making new friends and meeting cool people each time. I don't know if you have already but you should see if there are any nearby groups, meetups or potlucks etc. It's really been great meeting some like minded people.

Keep your chin up.

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+1 Great stuff Chewy!

All the best, Jungle!

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