I want to start off by giving an idea of my stats and my goals, and then explain what i've been doing. I'm hoping someone here sees a trend or can give me some guidance because I feel like I'm slowly losing my direction and my mental and physical health. I apologize beforehand if this post is all over the place - I'm really struggling to get my thoughts together, so please bear with me.
22 years old
around 13% bf
vegan for 1 year
working out for 3 years
Recent exercises and current max weights for an idea of what I do:
Leg Press 810x8
Overhead Press 150x5
Calf Raise 630x7
Decline Press 225x8
I focus mainly on volume training, trying to increase the amount that I lift each month, and I also try to go for low reps and high weight. Since January, heres what I have done:
Jan: 361,630 over 19 days
Feb: 313,762 over 14 days
Mar: 349,460 over 16 days
Apr: 574,565 over 17 days (so far)
Aside from lifting, I also use a recumbent bike to do cardio, which I normally do 7 days a week for about 30-60 minutes a day at 13 of 15 resistance, burning 350-800 calories as indicated by the machine. I also lift at home when i'm just hanging out, but I normally don't record that. I really only rest when I'm hanging out with my girlfriend.
In the past month, I've also increased my alcohol consumption to around 1-2 bottles of wine a week, which I'm working to cut out (I know this has an effect on body fat).
I normally sleep 6.5-7.5 hours a night, go to bed at 9:30-10:30, wake up 4:30-5:30. This month I've been staying up much later on fridays and saturdays, but I'm still getting 6.5-7.5 hours of sleep.
This past month, I really focused my efforts and put everything I had into working out. I've been trying to go off some of the same principles as Arnold because he is my main idol. But I'm seeing the following things:
Difficulty figuring out when I'm hungry, feel like I'm not sure if I'm eating correctly (enough, too little, too much)
Increased body fat in midsection
A decrease in abdominal visibility and tactile definition
A perceived decrease in muscular strength in my chest and in compound exercises
A marked increase in strength in my calves and neck
Perceiving clothes fitting looser than normal
Tiredness and an inability to concentrate
A lack of motivation for cleaning my apartment or keeping my things in order
A feeling that if i'm not working out I'm wasting my time
A decrease in social interaction with people outside of my girlfriend and my parents
A more frequent runny nose than I'm used to
I'd really like to increase the intensity of my workouts and cut down on how many of them I am doing, but I struggle with feeling like I'm wasting my time if I'm not lifting. It's all I think about and I want to be able to focus on more than just that, but I just can't. I'm stuck in a mindset that the more that I work out, the better results I'll see. I really just want to cut my fat back down and feel better about myself, as I really want to be able to see the abs I've worked so damn hard to build. I have a really hard time seeing what I look like compared to anybody, and I feel like I'm not making the progress visually that I would like to make, but I can't be sure of that. I normally just use how I feel my clothes fit to determine if I'm making progress.
Another interesting note: I moved out of my parents' house in February, and I feel like I've been struggling with my eating since then. Not cravings - it's more like I'm trying to figure out what to eat to get enough calories, and it normally ends up being tofu or other dense foods.
I use Gym Buddy to record my workouts, so it's possible for me to provide all of my workouts for any given month or for all of them. I just really need some assistance as I don't feel like I'm doing well right now mentally. And I can see myself gaining weight and I hate it, and I feel like nothing I do is changing it.
Thanks for reading.