VEGAN CHAINSAW GIRL pics and progress

[Justin Morgan]

Wowsa!!!!!!!! You look excellent from every angle, and your hair is beautiful.

[Cellar Yeti]

Stihl makes good equipment.

[Justin Morgan]

Now that I see this again, you look a lot like Carrie-Ann Moss (trinity from the matrix) only with better hair and more muscle. And that's saying something, because she has some pretty great hair as it is.

[Lean and Green]

You definitely have a solid frame and foundation going on.

It also sounds like you are putting in some serious work for the next competition. Looking forward to seeing your continued progress. It will be inspiring to others on the forum.

Don't get discouraged from your last competition. Because of all the effort that you're clearly putting into gaining more lbm, you'll be that much more of a presence come show time

[ascend9]

You look awesome...Being healthy is the most important thing. You Know It!

[precision female]

Photo update from today. 141 lbs. Been a bad month with a lot of stress and depression. Lost some weight but it came back in a week. Hoping to be 150lbs for Christmas.

[robert]

Your back is soooo awesome!

Keep after it!

[ascend9]

Your back is soooo awesome!

Keep after it!

Agreed!

I hope that cloud of depression dissipates into nothing and allows you to reach you're goals.

[beforewisdom]

Hey PF,

You look so fit in those pics nobody would ever guess you were depressed. Your waist is so fantastically small.

If you do not mind my asking, how tall are you?

[precision female]

ya...I do have a tiny waist...
5 ft 8.5

Since this picture I've been extremely sick. Haven't been to the gym in 10 days. I OD'd on sleep meds and rather than being extra sleepy I went 38hrs with no sleep having trouble breathing and my whole body shaking and had slurred speech and couldn't walk. Its way beyond depression. I will only take pills if its life threatening and even then there's a moral battle over animal tested meds and I usually don't take them and things get worse.

[beforewisdom]

ya...I do have a tiny waist...
5 ft 8.5

I know women who would donate a kidney to get a waist as small as yours, LOL

5 8 is a good advantage, most female BBs are very short.

Since this picture I've been extremely sick. Haven't been to the gym in 10 days. I OD'd on sleep meds and rather than being extra sleepy I went 38hrs with no sleep having trouble breathing and my whole body shaking and had slurred speech and couldn't walk. Its way beyond depression.

Sleep medication is evil. 8 Years ago I had chronic insomnia. I was lucky that I came across a book detailing how bad sleep meds are and telling me to get off of them before I got hooked. Beyond drinking as much water as you can, there isn't much you can do besides wait to get the drugs out of your system. On the upside, once they are out, your depression will probably lift a bit.

I was sick last week and slept a lot. Life looked bleak until my sleeping patterns returned to normal.

Did you used to be much larger?

How many years have you been lifting?

[precision female]

lifting 16 months. I am the biggest I've been in my life. Naturally I am really scrawny.
I am dependent on sleep meds at this point. Depression has been my whole life but as long as I can sleep I can be relatively functional and everyone thinks I'm fine but even one night of missed sleep causes me to have panic attacks or violent fits and be suicidal. I wouldn't be on meds if it wasn't life threatening...and I only go to the doctor when it comes to that final decision of jumping off the city parkade or taking pills for a few days. But...now I can't sleep at all without them. I wouldn't last more than a few days without them.

[beforewisdom]

lifting 16 months. I am the biggest I've been in my life. Naturally I am really scrawny.

I have friends who started off naturally slim, you have had amazing gains for 16 months.

I am dependent on sleep meds at this point. Depression has been my whole life but as long as I can sleep I can be relatively functional and everyone thinks I'm fine but even one night of missed sleep causes me to have panic attacks or violent fits and be suicidal. I wouldn't be on meds if it wasn't life threatening...and I only go to the doctor when it comes to that final decision of jumping off the city parkade or taking pills for a few days. But...now I can't sleep at all without them. I wouldn't last more than a few days without them.

Wow, keep taking them. Has the problem been equally bad through most of your life or did it set in at puberty?

If I am being too personal, just don't answer.

Does working out help?

[precision female]

Problem started about 15 months ago. I was consciously over training but I have nothing else to do with my time. Since the May competition I have backed off a lot at the gym but other anxieties in life have rendered me often non functional for days or weeks. Yesterday was my first day at the gym in 11 days. I'm dramatically weaker and lost weight. I can never get past 141 lbs.
The guilt of taking animal tested meds is enough to make me suicidal on its own. I won't be able to take them for long and then I'll choose lack of sleep regardless of consequence.

[beforewisdom]

This world would probably be a paradise if people used only what they needed. You need those drugs. Don't feel guilty of it and don't deprive yourself. You might as well boycott using the highway because there are animal ingredients in tarmack too.