I agree DV, I agree.
Days 42 and 43
I did not go to the gym yesterday. I flipped my closet from fall/winter to spring/summer. It felt really good to get that out of the way. I didn't feel like leaving the house and still wanted to rest. I decided to hit the gym today instead. Last night I went to my parents' house for dinner and had them eating like vegans.
I made a kale salad with cucumbers and strawberries. It was lightly tossed with sesame oil and soy sauce. It was delicious!! I made mashed sweet potatoes and tofu/seed burgers on sprouted grain bread. I cut my Dad some slack and brought some vegan ginger cookies with me.
Today I woke up and knew I was going to go to the gym. The push to get up and start my day came from a spiritual place. I knew I was getting close to a "now or never" space in my life. After a week off, it's a pretty dangerous spot for me to be in, my history dictates that there's a good chance I would fall off the wagon. Something is different this time. I want this, all of it, for different reasons. Maybe for the 'right' reasons. I don't know.
I was realistic about my workout this morning. I didn't push it but did manage to increase my leg press by 10lbs and my ez bicep curls by 5lbs. I had a great work out and felt awesome after!! I was doing a chest press this morning and when I finished my 20 reps I looked in the mirror and I could see my trainer looking at me. He gave me a big thumbs up. I think he was worried that I had lost some strength or that I was heading down the road towards losing motivation again. He's been with me three years, he knows how easy it has been in the past for me to lose focus. I think we both want to believe that it's different this time.
I've been sleeping with the Body for Life book next to my pillow so I see it first thing in the morning. It's also pretty good motivation. I've got a few more chapters to read but I've been falling asleep so easily I haven't felt like reading.
Before going to the gym this morning, I was on Facebook and saw a photo of a woman with whom I went to university. I saw her name tagged but couldn't believe it was her. She must've gained 50lbs in the last 8 years. I felt badly for her... in a non-judgemental way... and I wondered how that happened. I thought to myself, if I'm not careful, that could be me. It seems like I would have to break all of my healthy habits before that could happen but still.... It was a source of motivation this morning... Wow!
I've brought work home with me for tomorrow. I might get a head start on it now so I can have more time off tomorrow...
I think a little nap is in order first. It's been a long day.