i have been doing very well lately imo. i have follwed my plan to a t. and not cheated on my diet (except yesterday, which i will write about in a minute) at all. it's been pretty cool. i was out buy a suitcase for vv08 and i saw the swimsuits and i was like "oh what the hell" i found one that i thought was cute but didn't think for a second it would look good on me. and it looked AWESOME on me. so awesome in fact that my best friend, whi is a guy, said that i cannot where it in public, ever. so would posting pictures count?
i have, however, been having some self esteem problems with my extra skin. i've had extra skin everywhere, but as m y bf drops even lower, it's getting outta control! its mildly embarassing. it's fine if i'm standing, but if i'm sitting or bending or what have you....yikes. not sure what to do about this and its frustrating, i'm supposed to be looking/feeling better about myself, not worse
yesterday i went to the gym and i forgot my notebook. i could remember almost everything i had to do, but i ised it as an excuse to push my limits and see what my one rep max was for most things. i was a little disappointed, but just a little. i always set the bar just out of reach dammit. i did 3 sets of 2 (
) assisted pullups with someone holdingmy feet. he said he just helped me a little, but hey its a start. i then tried to see what my max was on my lat pulldown (because obviously its not yet at my bodyweight) and it is about 95lbs. thats still 35 lbs away from unassisted pullups!!!!!!!!!!
i then tried to see what i could curl with a bb. i grabbed a 60 and could barely move it. so then i grabbed a 50 and i just ba-ba-ba-barely got it up, but i did, so i was happy. then i did a set of negatives with that 50. ouch.
next-bench press (this isn't even part of my routine, but the guy i wa sthere with wanted to do them and i was doing chest yesterday too. he is very very strong but for some reason his chest is crap, he was pushing just the bar with no plates and i'm thinking "i can do that" so i did) after watching my friend push an empty bar, i put 30 lbs on the bar and pushed out a set of six. so 75 lbs, set of six. woo hoo. i felt tough after that.....finally.
then i came home and cheeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaated on my diet like whoa! my friend, who is a chef, has wanted to make me "chicken quesadillas" for ages. so he did yesterday. whole what tortillas, sauteed onions and jalepenos , follow your heart cheddar cheese, soy chicken strips, baked with salsa, homemade guacamole, and tofutti sour cream. oh my god! it was heaven. then he made me peanut butter cups......i pretty much died after i ate that. i imeediately went into a soy coma and lied on the couch for several hours. today the soy hangover remains and i feel pretty guilty, but it might have been the best cheat i have ever had. (and it was high protein vp!
) i just had to post about it.
back on 100% today. time to go to the gym and squat those quesadillas away!