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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#46 Postby CollegeB » Fri Jul 10, 2009 1:07 am

Yeah josh it's not really a big deal, but just FYI.

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#47 Postby DCNINJA » Fri Jul 10, 2009 11:27 am

The whole addiction dilemma is always interesting. I have on friend who was addicted to not eating (anorexia), she went to rehab for it, then she became addicted to exercise. She just got back from there. I know people who are addicted to twelve step programs, religion, sex, coke, alcohol, and even shopping. I think most people at one time or another are addicted to something. It is great to see someone have the courage to face that addiction, and the underlying root cause. I salute the integrity of anyone who is willing to deal with those hard topics.

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#48 Postby zinzen » Fri Jul 10, 2009 12:46 pm

Addiction is something we all run into, some addictions by society are good, some bad, to me they all run in the way of freedom. I must be free, i will be free.

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#49 Postby CollegeB » Fri Jul 10, 2009 2:26 pm

Zin I like that line of thinking.

I think just about most things can be addicting. I struggled with online gaming for a long time, no kidding. And there is a name for this actually. It's called process addiction. South Korea is putting out a lot of research on addictions to gaming in particular.

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#50 Postby Zack » Fri Jul 10, 2009 5:05 pm

CollegeB wrote:I struggled with online gaming for a long time, no kidding. And there is a name for this actually. It's called process addiction.


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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#51 Postby vivalasvegans » Fri Jul 10, 2009 10:47 pm

Alot of people are addicted to things like tv the same way some gamers are addicted, when you think about it. It's just that:

zinzen wrote:Addiction is something we all run into, some addictions by society are good, some bad, to me they all run in the way of freedom. I must be free, i will be free.

Word.

Our society is really sick. We got to take care of ourselves in it.

Tom, everyone here in this forum has your back. You're doing great. It's gonna get easier, but it will probably keep coming in waves of easy hard, easy hard. It's just that the waves of it will get less and less intense. I hope you're feeling good about doing what it takes to make this stick. You fucking deserve it.
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#52 Postby zinzen » Fri Jul 10, 2009 10:55 pm

Word son, right.
It is the inborn peace that I have known in ever so slight moments since I have been in this life that allow me to keep pressing on. I am damn aware that under all this fucked up pain and suffering is love, life is suffering but freedom is available to all of us in this life.
It aint god, it aint magic, its hardcore work and right intent. I have no choice now, once started better finish, I have been fighting this shit for 28 years, its time to find my peace, time for all of us to do the same.

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The world is divided between peasants and kings
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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#53 Postby Ruz » Sat Jul 11, 2009 3:26 am

The most dangerous addiction I saw was when I was a student. I was sharing a flat with a girl addicted to sex! Yes, I know lots of you are probably thinking "I know/am someone addicted to sex!" but addiction to sex is really dangerous. Apart from having No friends whatsoever because she tried it on with your dad, or boyfriend etc...she was so desperate for sex that she used to walk through hyde park at 4 in the morning wearing practically nothing. One day she came home with a huge gash in her head. Some guy had hit her with a wheel brace and raped her. We went to the police and I remember in the interview, when the police asked her to describe her attacker, all she did was talk about how good looking he was and how she would have fucked him if he had thought to simply ask. The police were looking at me astounded..obviously! Turned out she had a fractured skull and could have been killed. However, this didn't stop her asking the police that, if they found her attaker, could they please give her his phone number. Obviously, she wanted to fuck him again!
Moral of the story, whatever your addiction, there's always someone WAY worse off than you!
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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#54 Postby zinzen » Sun Jul 12, 2009 3:16 pm

Our hell is only ours to judge, I may have never gotten raped walking around looking for sex but I have had my share of horror. I totally feel your opinion, but worse, better, these are opinions in the eyes of those seeing others then ourselfs.
I am cool for now, starting the 12 steps tomorrow, going to meetings and freeing myself from the hell of my mind.
Tomorrow itll be 2 weeks, 2 weeks in 15 yrs.
Hells yeah kids

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#55 Postby Ruz » Sun Jul 12, 2009 3:42 pm

zinzen wrote:Our hell is only ours to judge, I may have never gotten raped walking around looking for sex but I have had my share of horror. I totally feel your opinion, but worse, better, these are opinions in the eyes of those seeing others then ourselfs.

Yeah..good point
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#56 Postby DCNINJA » Sun Jul 12, 2009 6:12 pm

Addiction is painful, but if you can recover and be the person you want to be; it gets easier. Just remember who you want to be. Live that value. You are doing great. :D

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#57 Postby veggieprincess » Mon Jul 13, 2009 8:30 pm

Hi Tom;

Just wanted to say that I'm really proud of you. I've been following along and I KNOW this is not easy for addictive personalities. I could SOOOOOOO easily be an alcoholic. It's a huge fear I have... I go through rough patches where I want to escape in it every single night (alcohol) and I have to dig REEEEEEEEEALLLLLLY deep not to. I just remember that I want to do big things with my life and I sure can't do them if I saturate all of my brain cells and destroy my body with substances. I truly feel there are addictive types of people and there are non-addictive types of people. I'm not sure I trust the non-addictive types. ha, ha. Just kidding

Hang in there. Very proud of you! You can do this!

Oh, and when I am having my tough moments, I repeat one of my favorite sayings over and over. Lance Armstrong said it and it gets me through a lot... relationships... struggles with food and alcohol... any kind of pain... we all share in the experience to be human and feel lots of pain.

“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.”
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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#58 Postby MaryStella » Mon Jul 13, 2009 8:45 pm

jumped in here late but I wish you all the best in your recovery.

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#59 Postby zinzen » Tue Jul 14, 2009 3:30 am

Good stuffs people.
Yesterday was two weeks, 14 days, well now 15.
Woke up early to attempt to start my morning meditation practice, we will see how this rolls.
I def still have a pain in my heart, especially when I hear the word percocet, wonder how long that will last.

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Re: Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

#60 Postby DaN » Tue Jul 14, 2009 3:56 am

Keep going buddy!

I was addicted to weed, and have tried alot of other stuff in the past.

Its all shit compared to being sober, it just takes a while to realise.Like others have said on here, really proud of you man!

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(someone said about doing something if you are getting craving or are bored.That is good advice.Another helpful thing I did was stop seeing any people who were still doing drugs.Hang around with normal sober people, it really helped me.I formed entirely new groups of friends.If you have particularily strong bonds with any of your old friends who still use, when you see them make sure its somewhere out of thier own home, where they cant do drugs.Take them to cinema or whatever, and when they wanna use, just say your goodbyes and leave.)


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