The running bug! I'd been really struggling with the motivation to run, which is why I started doing p90x. I've had zero desire to run for over a month now. And it hit me. I want to run a marathon. This is bad. If I want to compete in a bikini competition why am I obsessed with the idea of a marathon? I tried to train last year, and I managed to run 2 half marathons (with a third coming up in a few weeks, which I haven't felt like training for at all.) I don't know why I want to do it. But I do. I'll have to figure out if I can squash this urge...otherwise I'm gonna have to do it! When I want to run it's like an addiction...I have a problem lol. All I know is I'm browsing the internet for races happening during my breaks from school.
meal 1: 1/2 cup soaked steel cut oats (150) 2 tbsp cocoa powder (20) 2 tbsp brown rice protein (120) 1/3 cup blueberries (30)
meal 2: apple (70)
meal 3: 2 slices ezekial bread (160) avocado (100) salsa (15) <- felt sick after this, don't know why...it killed my legs workout though which sucked. It was legs and back day for p90x which is one of my favorites!
post-workout: vega (110)
meal 3: salad with bok choy (30) salsa (15) 2 tbsp homemade cucumber dressing (30) small amount of cashews (50) jicima (30)
and then I snacked on some edamame (120)
meal 4: "hot cocoa" which was 2 tbsp cocoa powder and water (20)
I need to make myself eat more. When I count my cals I have a feeling they're gonna be too low. Feel so full lately