WOW!!!! I'm almost embarrassed that it's been so long since I've last posted in my journal!
@luvpitbulls hi and thank you so much for stopping by. I hope you're going strong with your training!!
I'll be honest, I disappeared because things got a little difficult personally. I was hoping to come back and share some great news, but my good news turned into more bad news

Since I've been fairly open on this forum I feel okay sharing with you what's been going on. Mid March I surprisingly found out I was pregnant. And by surprise I mean, I was on birth control and of course with training for a competition, was in now way planning to extend our family at this time. We were excited though, even with it not being at the time we planned. It was also a nice break and a joy to think about considering the stress of my dads condition (which I'm happy to say he's doing very well right now considering).
I was able to continue on with my training for the first few weeks after I found out I was pregnant, it's always been a goal of mine to continue my fitness as much as possible for my health and of course the health of the baby. After a few weeks though I got very sick, and then began having complications. In the end I did end up losing the pregnancy a little over a week ago.
Needless to say it's been an emotional roller coaster the last month and a half and I've fallen very behind on my training. Well honestly it's been pretty non-existent.
So long story short...that's why I disappeared. It's a little typical of myself to retreat when things get overwhelming tough.
Now that I've had some time to heal emotionally I've had to come up with a new game plan as far as my fitness goals. At this point, I think it's fair to say that I won't be ready to compete in July so my plan now is to focus on bringing down my bodyfat %. Then build lean muscle. I'm thinking by early next year I'll be ready to compete, or at least be in a much more comfortable place that I would feel I could physically be ready to compete.
@luvpitbulls to answer your question about Vega, I use the vanilla flavor (though I'm still crossing my fingers for chocolate). It doesn't blend very well in smoothies, but I actually don't mind the taste mixed simply with water. I use it chug it right down and it's a smooth taste.
Oh and yes, as Robert mentioned I did celebrate my birthday back in February in true competitor fashion, I don't know how to post pictures here, but I enjoyed a giant salad complete with candles as my birthday cake

Sadly no real cake for me.
Aside from my bummer news, I do hope everyone has been focused, driven and working every day these last few months towards their goals!
I'm hoping that you'll see a little more of me around here now
