I'm seriously tired this morning. I stayed up reading a book I couldn't put down till 1am and up at 7. Worked out this weekend and it was the first time in a while that I've been sore so it was good!!
I started doing pushups- drill sergeant was relentless telling me that I have to do 50 even though I couldn't even do 1. So they were short pumps in the air followed by gasping and falling to the mat. But by 50, I actually think I did a full push up. I'll get better.
No weight loss

not sure what I'm doing really wrong. I'm being extremely disciplined (except this weekend)- 1200-1300 calories at the most every day (unless it's a workout day and then I eat a couple hundred more).
This is the kind of thing that discourages me from continuing. If I'm not going to lose weight, why try? I sound like a total whiner but it's seriously discouraging to be doing so much work for NOTHING. I've been doing this since January 1st and I'm still at the exact same weight.

What am I doing wrong? Maybe I need to just go completely raw vegan (which really is unrealistic because I won't stick to it). I'm going to make some changes this week and I hope to see results. This weekend kind of ruined everything because I just let it all go.
This journey is a tough one but I have to keep trying.