Hey there! It's Rebecca's Vegan Food, Life, and Fitness Journey Journal Blog Log Personal Accountability Thingamajig!
(10 years vegetarian - 3 years vegan - self taught vegan chef of the household - animal rescuer and adopter - Hashimoto's Hypothyroidism sufferer - legal secretary - actor for fun - wannabe bodybuilder)
Here we are at month 2 of the gym membership and personal training once a week and I've lost maybe 8 pounds, if that, starting at 200 pounds with a goal of 150 or less. The picture attached is me on Halloween in my Thor costume with my co-workers all dressed as The Avengers. We can consider this my before picture since I weighed in at 200 pounds when I wore this costume. Thor is also my inspiration to make my body match the costume. And I have a serious thing for Tom Hiddleston and not just because he played Loki.
I cried last night after a particularly difficult workout. I started out with 15 minutes on the elliptical at intensity level 15 going forwards, then did 15 minutes on the elliptical at intensity level 15 going backwards. Then my trainer saw me, and even though we were not scheduled, he generously gave me an impromtu 10 minute killer core and lower body workout. I still cannot do the proper form of the free standing invisible chair without someone holding my hands so I don't fall. We started with the invisible chair until my quads were shaking, then immediately jumped on the quad machine for a hard and heavy lifting set immediately followed by the hamstring machine and then rotated between the two machines with no rest for 3 full sets, then immediately followed by stepping up and down on a platform for what seemed like forever. I was struggling just to stand up straight. He really likes to burn me out and then push me beyond what my body thinks is the limit. Finally he let me stop and I realized it had only been 10 minutes. I felt so weak and embarrassed for being burned out so easily. Then he assigned me to do lunges across the gym and back before I left for the night. I did my upper body lifting exercises and then did the lunges as instructed, but I fell twice. I left the gym and cried.
I love the way it makes me feel and do very much enjoy working out, but I guess I'm just impatient and want to see results faster than this. It's already an uphill battle having hypothyroidism that slows my metabolism and makes me fatigue fast, but I feel like I'm pushing as hard as I can. At the very least, after two months, I want to be able to hold my own body weight by myself. Tonight I have my actual session with my trainer. I will try again with the free standing invisible chair. Maybe I can hold it by myself tonight.