Lindsay, you definitely did not ever say go 100% unprocessed. You even gave examples of processed foods you DO eat! I just put my all-or-nothing, black-and-white thinking on a suggestion.
I was thinking about that (even before I saw your post!), and one thing I didn't share is that I did do a whole-foods food plan for a few weeks (except for my homemade salad dressing, which uses Splenda and mustard), and I hated it. My cravings were much worse. Never before and never since had a simple Clif builder's bar seemed so delicious in my mind. But I believe the real reason is not because of the whole foods per se, but because I said, "Okay, this is it...NO MORE processed foods, AT ALL. No more Clif builder's bars, no more ersatz meats, no more cereal. I'm detoxing, dammit, getting off the processed junk that's probably the only thing in the way of all my hopes and dreams. It's going to suck for the first three weeks, and then I'll be cured of my food addiction!" Well, perhaps not exactly in those terms...but that was my way of thinking when I approached the whole foods plan last time.
I went into it with a punitive, purist mentality, and for the duration (I actually can't recall how many weeks), I suffered virtuously. "Screw this; this is supposed to enhance my life, not make me feel I don't have one!" I exclaimed, as I put bocas, Hi-Lo, and Clifs back on the shopping list.
I went too far, too fast, for me. I know there are some who do well with the drastic detox approach. Maybe one day that will be me. For now, it reminds me too much of my days of "This is going to be the low-calorie diet that I won't break. I'm sick of being this fat, lazy, and undisciplined. I suck. This will fix me."
However, I can be completely on board with gradually reducing my dependence on processed foods (and I agree, Lindsay, about the peanut butter, BTW). Maybe begin by replacing a boca burger with some pinto beans or edamame. Maybe replace a Clif builder's bar (sometimes--I'd still like them as an occasional treat) with a protein powder drink and a banana--still processed, but less so, and fulfills the convenience factor. That was the other thing about my whole foods attempt; it simply took too much time to eat a bowl of corn and beans post workout.
In the spirit of keeping an open mind, I will try to stop worrying about the protein. It will be scary to let go of the gram-per-pound mantra, but I can use myself as an experiment of sorts. I'm just trying to find out what helps me build muscle and lose fat best. And to find that out, I'm trying and comparing different approaches.
When I dropped a large amount of body fat in the fall of 2005, I ate about 80 grams of protein a day...and didn't lose much lean mass on 1554 calories a day (those were hungry days, I tell ya--don't want to go that low again if I can help it!). And when I started trying to build muscle and ate up to 180 gms/day at one point, I wasn't making gains, though I did continue to drop fat even at 2100 calories a day.
So can I let go of the fear? Maybe not...but I can feel the fear and do it anyway, as the saying goes.
That said, I'm not sure when I'll design the new food plan. But it may be sooner than December.
Wow, this is more of a rambling blog than a training log, but I think of it as training my brain as well.
Speaking of which, affirmations are going well. Said them to myself as I worked out (off and on). Helped me in my 3rd set of leg presses and on the bike when I was afraid my knee pain might come back. It really helps!
3x17(except for wall sits)
Wall sits, 1:45 (made it through all 3 sets at this length of time--woo-hoo! I pictured all of you cheering me on; thanks! Moxie was there in her posing suit, Lindsay76 was there with her dreads, and Bunnylalu's friendly polar bear made me smile!)
crunches on decline bench
standing calf raise
Cardio: 20 min SS recumbent bike
45 min roll/stretch
Yesterday's food (1883 cals):
FF multigrain bread, 1 slice
flaxseeds, 2 T
CLIF builder's bar
beans, 2 oz.
edamame, 1/3 lb.
beans, 2 oz.
edamame, 1/3 lb.
1 medium red bell pepper
leafy greens, 1/2 lb.
onion, 1/2 medium
Hi-Lo, 1/2 c