Hello my name is Tom and I am a drug addict.

[xveganjoshx]

I'm guessing you got my pm, but chose not to respond. I took time out to write that, but no big deal.

Good luck.

[zinzen]

Been a minute since I posted, still sober. Some days its a breeze, some days not so much. Today I went to AA and the lead was fucking funny as all hell, good stuff.
My fear of the impending doom of winter is whooping my ass, bout to go get one of the SAD lights, hopefully thatll help me through, if not totally fix the depression.
Thanks again for everyones help and comments, all of you kick much ass.
Peace
-Tom

[michaelhobson]

My fear of the impending doom of winter is whooping my ass, bout to go get one of the SAD lights, hopefully thatll help me through, if not totally fix the depression.

Damn! I'm glad you understand that! I've been "nesting" like a frickin squirrel, trying to get the home ready for winter. The cold nights give me a bit of a sick feeling in my stomach. It rained most of the day Monday, was dark and gray out all day and I really felt it. I picked up my little white LED flashlight and shined it right in my eyes, instant endorphin rush. Holy crap, I really need one of those SAD lights!!!

Good to hear you're staying sober! I'm still off the coffee and all caffeine, has been hard these past couple of weeks as I've been temping in an office where everyone is sucking down the coffee like it was oxygen!

[zinzen]

Still sober, next week, 7 days from now it shall be 90 days and my sponser owes me a cookie.
This shit has not, and is not easy by any stretch of the imagination, but it is now getting that way. The sad thing is change, as in I have not.
Yet
I am still the same asshole I have always been, just sober now. I am working on this though. Thank you for all your support and words.

[Vegan Joe]

That's the one thing about sobriety: It leaves one no place to hide.
Congratulations Tom!
PS Change is not always self-evident.

[zinzen]

Change may not be, and few may say that I have changed, that I am more social, a wee bit more comedic, but inside the hellish pits of my mind, test me and the rage is the same, I am still as angry, and bitter as before, is all I mean.

[zinzen]

Sober 120 days today, still extreamly challenging everyday, wish I didnt have the swine flu today

[John V]

Heal up fast Zinzen.

[Vegan Joe]

Except for the flu part.

[Fallen_Horse]

Except for the flu part.

+1, you are kicking ass!

[zinzen]

Just checking in to say I am still sober, its still kinda rough and come the day after Christmas itll be 6 months. Just figured I would let everyone know I am still keeping my head up.

[Fallen_Horse]

I would imagine it's better than the old days though. If you need motivation (not saying you do ) then just look through this thread and see how many people are pulling for you. Keep pushing on!

[John V]

Thanks for letting us know Tom. Take good care, you're important to us.

[zinzen]

Sober Six months today. Didnt see that coming. Bout to hit up the gym, starting a full time massage job in 2 weeks at a brand new Lifetime Fitness. This life can change on a dime man, weird good stuff. Hope all had a cool holiday. Peace out crackers.

[John V]

Sober Six months today.

...and the months will turn to years. Keep it positive, Tom.