zinzen Posted July 19, 2009 Author Share Posted July 19, 2009 I swear I laid down at 8 pm to nap because of a headache, hoping sleep would kill it naturally ( I am kinda scared to even take tylenol, I was known to abuse all forms of pills) it is now 1:30 am and I am wide awake with a pounding skullfuck of a headache. ARRRRRR Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vegan Joe Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 (edited) Going "cold turkey" is always a first hand experience. Hang on to the roller coaster ride cause here we go.Might want to go easy on the coffee, until your natural rhythms reach equilibrium.Also these symptoms you talk about also parallel caffine withdrawal.Just thinking out loud. Edited July 19, 2009 by Vegan Joe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vegan Joe Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 Got yourself a one a day vitamin? Every other day works just as well. Last ya twice as long. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 19, 2009 Author Share Posted July 19, 2009 Another day half gone, headache still hardcore. Oh well, just came back from dog days at the botanical gardens, good fun for sure.I am still amazed day in and out that I can laugh and be silly and have a good time without being fucked up.Good times had by all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
veggieprincess Posted July 19, 2009 Share Posted July 19, 2009 aaaw. Well that is great to here! I think you'll totally be the same person as far as the GOOD stuff that made you YOU. Proud of you zinny! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 20, 2009 Author Share Posted July 20, 2009 3 weeks sober today Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HCPinGviini Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 Now that I (actually didn't really) had the time I read your blog andman, it's amazing how you're progressing. I really am proud of you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beforewisdom Posted July 20, 2009 Share Posted July 20, 2009 Having given up and started things, the earlier days are the harder, more meaningful victories. It is hard to believe now but at some point you pick up momentum where it will become easier. Congratulations. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
veggieprincess Posted July 21, 2009 Share Posted July 21, 2009 Great job Tom! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xveganjoshx Posted July 21, 2009 Share Posted July 21, 2009 3 weeks sober today Awesomeness! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaN Posted July 21, 2009 Share Posted July 21, 2009 Good work Zinz, after all your hard work, make sure you dont let yourself down and have to start again.You have the momentum, keep the power! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 22, 2009 Author Share Posted July 22, 2009 On this day I am starting to feel my energy back, its been a long time(8yrs) since I felt my chi flow, and its coming back, man I missed that feeling. bout to go to the gym for the second time today, I remember when I did that a bunch, back when I lived 30 seconds away. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
John V Posted July 22, 2009 Share Posted July 22, 2009 Take good care Tom. Let me buy you a cup of tea soon. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 23, 2009 Author Share Posted July 23, 2009 So today I figured out how to freaking stop thinking and reacting to things out of anger. funny thing is I have been doing it forever, just at the wrong times. Wonder how long itll last. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 24, 2009 Author Share Posted July 24, 2009 Another day closer to a month, I find Friday nights to be the hardest, so we will see if that has eased yet tonigh. Off for some coffee and to read. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vegan Joe Posted July 25, 2009 Share Posted July 25, 2009 All are valuble human beings non any more valuble than the next.We are a compilation of our genes (heredity), enviornment, and our prevailing awareness (which is changing all the time). These are what make us who and what we are, and why we act the way we do. Becoming more aware is the one thing we have controll over. So when one realises (keep trying to remind myself), that I am no better than anyone else helps to temper your anger, when it come to reactions to others stimuli. Judgement is a difficult thing to temper.We are all knuckle heads on the same bus. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 25, 2009 Author Share Posted July 25, 2009 I feel all that for sure, what I am talking about with the anger is not a thought or no thought , but in fact a feeling, a weird ass feeling that I can turn on and off like a switch, not so much a peace feeling but an energy feeling. It was an old school meditation I used to do, a by product of qigung. Tomorrow I go to the cleveland zen centre and start free qugong classes, Excited Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fallen_Horse Posted July 25, 2009 Share Posted July 25, 2009 Dude you are kicking ass. Keep it up man!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 25, 2009 Author Share Posted July 25, 2009 Man I really have to wonder why it is that I still wake up feeling hung over a lot. Not the nausea so much as the gereral uhgness of the whole situation. What the shit anyways, lasts only a fraction of the time but absolutly shitty anyways Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vegan Joe Posted July 25, 2009 Share Posted July 25, 2009 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYNAF-QcPrE Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 25, 2009 Author Share Posted July 25, 2009 VJ you post some seriously strange things up here but I gotta say CCR is in fact one of the greatest bands this planet has ever seen, so its cool buddy.Qigong class was great, its nice how less painful sitting is becoming for me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vivalasvegans Posted July 25, 2009 Share Posted July 25, 2009 Keep kicking this thing's ass, Tom! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
veggieprincess Posted July 25, 2009 Share Posted July 25, 2009 Man I really have to wonder why it is that I still wake up feeling hung over a lot. Not the nausea so much as the gereral uhgness of the whole situation. What the shit anyways, lasts only a fraction of the time but absolutly shitty anyways Because you've been numbing yourself for SOOOOO long, you're FEELING all the things that you would've felt all along but always escaped into substances. Sometimes life SUCKS and sometimes days are REALLY HARD and no fun and you just put one foot in front of the other knowing that it won't last. Always remember that you've been in a habit of numbing the good and the bad, so when you have those crappy times, remember that everything comes to pass, and eventually you'll have a happy moment that'll feel so much better than when you were numbing it out and not feeling it. All we have in life is a series of beautiful, wonderful happy moments in between a bunch of crap and BS that we have to sift through to get to those moments but it is worth it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 25, 2009 Author Share Posted July 25, 2009 Yup Yup, today is swell none the less, huge headache but oh well Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
zinzen Posted July 26, 2009 Author Share Posted July 26, 2009 This day I walked and walked, untill I got to lake Erie, then I sat and sat, and now I eat. Godd morning so far.http://i20.photobucket.com/albums/b215/zinzen/home.jpgHome Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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