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My soon to be ex called this morning to confirm the divorce (he lives in Texas) ..... I knew it was coming. Guess I didn't realize it would happen like this. This after all the attacks and then the hospitalization and a weekend I just had from hell. On of these days I'll write a book.... I'm getting so tired of being the victim I suppose .... ever since I was a child (abused) I just had to fight for everything. Looks like the divorce is going to be really nasty. I think he is being fed a lot from his friends. Sadly he should know me better, I am not a mean person at all and don't have it in me to fight back. I guess he may be betting on that.

 

So here's the rant:

Women: stop calling me Barbie or that Barbie Doll to your male friends nastily, while you scrunch your nose and shrug your shoulders or wave your hand at me, when I am standing right in front of you.

 

Stop starting rumors about me. I do not sleep around at ALL and I AM NOT an escort (yeah, female started that one and it spread fast). Stop being so mean to me. I would never do that to you, even after you have already done it to me. I have even responded to people who have told me this, that it was a shame, because I really liked you and was hoping I had made a friend.

 

The rest of the world: stop judging me solely on my looks. I may not show it but I have feelings and a soul. I am not shallow, there is a lot more too me, if you would just take a second to talk to me.

 

Stop trying to label me ....... I am my own person. I am like NO ONE you have EVER met, so just stop trying!

 

Yes, I model full time .... fitness, bikini, lingerie and calendars, I also headline/feature as an exotic dancer (not full nude) this DOES not make me "easy" ..... in fact I am quite content in my own body and do not need your approval. I am neither a slut or a whore and in fact am VERY VERY picky.

 

Christians: stop judging me because I am not. I took in 2 children last week so they would have a roof over their head and food in their bellys (good vegan food I might add). AND I made sure they were on the school bus..... something their "parent(s)" and I use the term loosely did not and was not doing. I am also taking in at least one more child if not more permanently ..... I don't see you so called "Christians" doing that. I refuse to shut the door in these children's face. So go pray on Sunday and act like you are holier then thou ...... I've gotten your e-mails. The nastiest from the born again christian right was "when you are in your 30's and have kids and your looks are gone, what are you going to do then?" Guess what sweetheart, I am in my 30's and I have had 5 .... what is your excuse???????

 

And no, I don't think ALL christians are like this.... so don't go there either. I do not hate or judge ANYONE. But the majority of my e-mails and rumors are started by you...... the person who is preached to not to judge. Perhaps you should pay a little more attention in church?

 

MEN: You are OK with "Barbie", the toy and want to parade me around in front of all your friends, but when they find out about 2 failed marriages and then 4 living biological kids and now even more, and that I take in these kids sometimes last minute and feed them (and sometimes cloth them ..... yes buying prom dresses ...from thrift store for 2 beautiful young ladies who deserve to feel beautiful at their prom) ..... you run for the hills. Throw that on top of being *gasp* vegan and you assume I am crazy to boot.

 

If I turn you down for a date, that does not make me stuck up or conceded, nor do I think I am "too good for you".

 

AND FINALLY..... NO I am not going to stop. I am going to continue to help others, model, personal train, headline, and be vegan..... so just learn to deal with it. I am not allowing you or anyone else to change who I am. AND I am GOING to keep going stronger and stronger, and come out knowing I made an impact!

 

For those who read my ramblings, I feel much better now....... SO I guess kind of an open "diary" to my friends here. You all have always been so nice to me in the past.... and have always accepted me for me, even if you didn't agree with me.... and I love that. I have been through a lot in life and even more suddenly. Things are moving so fast right now. I just need to take few days to step back and regroup.

 

And I could use a hug too................. even just a little one will do

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Dude you need someone to vet your e-mails, no need to put up with garbage from people who don't have a good point of view or anything constructive to say. I can understand someone sending hate mail or whatever to somebody who is in-your-face about a subject, or who is doing something which negatively affects someone else. But I haven't heard of you doing either of those things, I don't know why people think it's their business to harrass you.

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Wow, I didn't know you had quite all this much stigma attacking you. It is ridiculous that people would think you are a slut because of the way you make a living. Modeling, even exotic dancing, does not always have to entail sex. I know it isn't entirely related to what you do, but I nude model for art classes here at my college, yet I am a virgin. Not exactly the same thing as a man whore. In fact, I am far more moral in just about every respect than the majority of Christians and I am in their eyes one among the most atrocious groups of people, an atheist.

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Sounds like you're going through a lot of stuff right now. I don't know you, except for your posts here. But I can tell that you are a very caring person, especially when you help other peoples kids. Don't worry about the people that are criticising you, they are obviously jealous, and somewhat pathetic if you ask me. You have a busy, and full life, and you are a wonderful role model, especially for female vegans. And what can I say about men, except that they are men lol.

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Good rant. Sometimes it feels good to let it out. Props to you... and hugs. Stay up Denise... Tell the haters to or kill em with kindness, either way, the world will always be full of ignorance and jealousy, just a part of life that blows. I choose to eliminate associating with individuals with those characteristics... I've lost quite a few so called friends because I see they became overly jealous or just plain ignorant... one day they'll wake up and smell my vegan gas.

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Sorry you are going through all of this... it must be hard to be judged unfairly.

 

Just remember all of the drama this guy has caused you and that you will probably be very relieved when it is all behind you....

 

And I still stick with my original advice which is to read the book, "Why Men Love Bitches"... which is nothing like the title sounds... its more about respect and standing up for yourself in all aspects of your relationship. That book changed my life and I've talked to Sherry (the author) several times so if you ever want her to counsel you, she's very very affordable and did wonders for me.

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I agree that you shouldn't even read those emails. As soon as someone becomes a celebrity of any kind they get a lot of negative attention. that is when its time to stop reading what people say about you. I know that's much more difficult when people are being horrible to your face. But like you say, they don't know you. Just look right through them and walk away. Jealousy is making them judge you as a 'barbie doll' or a 'whore'. quite honestly I wouldn't waste my spit on any of those people. EVEN IF YOU DID sleep around, that wouldn't make you bad! I actually HATE HATE HATE it when people think they can put a woman down by casting aspersions on her lack of purity. What makes them so damn pure. I have no respect for those types. And since when does a woman have to be 'pure' to be worthy of courtesy and respect? Any person is worthy of at least that. Its completely crazy and the only way to deal with it is to not deal with it. They are a bunch of crazy psychos, have nothing to do with their emails or their conversation. You are doing great work. You are one of the people who is a big inspiration to me. I think you are fabulous.

 

Have you heard of a book called "The Gift of Fear" by Gavin de Becker. It is written by a man who gets hired to assess how dangerous death threats and stalkers can be to celebrities and other prominent people. Its a great book, with lots of excellent insight. If you haven't already I think you should read that in light of the stalker problems you are having. Then "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise Hay is just fabulous. It shows how to reclaim self esteem and positivity through affirmations and meditation. It is doing wonders for me.

 

Wishing you all the best and continuing success!!

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Let me just tell you one thing: Envy brings out the worst in people. Women are going to envy your looks. You're very beautiful. Not only are you beautiful on the outside, but you're beautiful on the inside too. Not many people are willing to open their hearts and their homes to children who don't have one to go to.

I feel so sad for you that people treat you like this. Just because of something petty like jealousy. It's stupid. You're way above that. I think you're an amazing person. You do so much for others and accomplish things and follow your dreams. Don't let people bring you down!

You rock, girl!

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damn, this was interesting to read. you've had to deal with quite a lot of shit. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?

and yeah, i want to echo what marcina wrote. envy sucks, don't let it get to you.

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Let me just tell you one thing: Envy brings out the worst in people. Women are going to envy your looks. You're very beautiful. Not only are you beautiful on the outside, but you're beautiful on the inside too. Not many people are willing to open their hearts and their homes to children who don't have one to go to.

I feel so sad for you that people treat you like this. Just because of something petty like jealousy. It's stupid. You're way above that. I think you're an amazing person. You do so much for others and accomplish things and follow your dreams. Don't let people bring you down!

You rock, girl!

 

Not the Christians. They'll sin if they envy Sea'S.

You're hot and they suck because they don't work as hard as you to get a hot body looking like yours. You work you ass off, and they'll are lazy pieces of SHIT!!! I bet all the women who are messing you are fat, lazy and trampy.

You know they are only making you stronger. But really I don't know how much stronger you can actually get

You're determined and when you fall down you pick yourself up.

You Rock Denise !

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It's strange and stupid how people connect certain looks with below average intelligence. It's like they think God revenges them with something else because they got those looks. I don't know.

 

Morons are hard to block out , their stupidity is in some ways entertaining and fascinating so you keep listening/reading even though you know it will piss you off.

 

Also, these minds are what have to change to get a better world which can get you down quite a bit.

 

You are great!

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Not the Christians. They'll sin if they envy Sea'S.

 

Lol. They don't care about sinning anymore. Half the Christians I've met are former drug addicts. Not to mention, most of them seem to be overweight/obese. Gluttony is a sin too but they don't give a shit. They think that as long as they get to church every Sunday they're in the clear I guess.

Not trying to bash Christians in general, but the ones I typically meet are like this.

They also seem to be the most judgemental people. Even I get judged because I have black hair and tattoos and listen to rock n roll (omgz devil's music). People think I'm goth or whatever. I've never at any point, worshipped the devil. I think the Christians made him up so they had someone to blame for their screw-ups.

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Good rant and I hope it helps you feel better, if not for just a little bit. That must have taken alot to lay all that out there! I wanted to say that I hope that not all christians are viewed this way, as I am one. I last went to church when my sunday school teacher was talking about how rough a week he had at work when he was asked by his boss to talk and try to sell a motorcycle to some lesbian group big wheel. He harped on it for a few minutes about how he felt and didn't want to even talk to her. I had to open my big mouth and say"Well, if it was the CEO of Anhieser (SP?)Bush, would you have felt the same way? Which, of these people have caused the most damage to people?" well, he couldn't say anything. I think it is a shame that "Christians" don't act "Christ like" which is to say that: having compassion is where it is all at! Not judging, not our place. I am sorry, I have read that you are having a rough time, and though I don't know you I feel so sorry that you are having a rough time. We are not all bad.... though I do agree that most I know are exactly as described here. It is sad, that the goal is to attract others to the faith yet all they do is push people away. When I went vegan, I was actually told I wasn't a christian anymore.........Crazy. Here I was trying to lead a more compassionate life, maybe like Jesus preached?

Anyway I have a tat, am a recovering drug addict, a little chubby, love rock and roll, and am adopting a two year old. By the way, My "Christian friends are upset that my step daughter may be "bi" and that I am not acting more upset.... sheesh. The world is a crazy place!

 

Didn't mean to hijak the thread... I just think you shouldn't let what people do or say get you down, I know it is discouraging. I just have to say that I think what you have accomplished is awesome and that you are doing what alot of people only dream they could do. Keep up the hard work, I know alot of people on here support you and count me in!

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I like how you referred to them as being "un-Christ like"

The saying "What would Jesus Do?" Is a pretty good one. Jesus was not a judgemental person.. Obviously. You are what Christians SHOULD be, then they wouldn't get such a bad rep.

Being bi is a confusing thing. I find myself attracted to other women but i've never told anybody about it.

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I don't really get mad at Christians of they're honest. Problem is....the Christians I respect most are the conservative ones most liberal atheists like myself hate. I respect following a regimen...even if I don't agree with it. Too a point...I'd rather hang around judgemental Christians than overly accepting people that act completely against what they believe.

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Not the Christians. They'll sin if they envy Sea'S.

 

Lol. They don't care about sinning anymore. Half the Christians I've met are former drug addicts. Not to mention, most of them seem to be overweight/obese. Gluttony is a sin too but they don't give a shit. They think that as long as they get to church every Sunday they're in the clear I guess.

Not trying to bash Christians in general, but the ones I typically meet are like this.

They also seem to be the most judgemental people. Even I get judged because I have black hair and tattoos and listen to rock n roll (omgz devil's music). People think I'm goth or whatever. I've never at any point, worshipped the devil. I think the Christians made him up so they had someone to blame for their screw-ups.

 

Now lets not get off topic.

But you've just met a raw vegan athletic straight edge Christian. I'm not really into Christianity as much now but it's help me out through my worse and lonely times 5 yrs back.

I think that's the main reason why SS is posting this thread.

She's hurt from People who judge her! So lets not judge

Cool ?

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The position SeaSiren is in is not uncommon for women with conventionally great looks. When people who are not completely happy with themselves ( who is? ) see women like SeaSiren they feel insecure. They soothe that by cutting her down to size in their minds.....or verbally to others.

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I'm sorry these things are happening to you Sea. I'm glad you are not letting those idiots control who you are and who you chose to be. (As has been noted before, they're jealous and think the best way to make themselves look better is to tear you down.)

 

For what it's worth, sending you a big hug. (((HUG)))

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