welcome! no need to be ashamed/embarrassed about crying when you see such cruelty happening, i dont watch alot of those type of videos anymore (but i have seen them) because it pains me too much to watch them (i sob like a baby). I do think though that if everyone in the world saw what went on, 90% of the world would become vegan. It pisses me off when i send someone a link and they say 'i dont want to watch it because if i do i'll become vegetarian and i dont want to because i like meat!' That REALLY winds me up! Sorry to hear you have crohn's, i heard the best thing for that was to give up meat (i am by no means a Dr. though!) Ive met a couple of people with it and unfortunately they dont look after themselves at all. Anyhoo, enough of me babbling on! take care!