mizzourunner

hey, you're doing great. Q about squats though. What kinds are you doing? Which ways do you position your legs and feet? I know there are different kinds and ways you can stand to work different leg muscles. Where and how are you holding the barbells and/or dumbbells? Just looking for advice from someone more experienced than me. Currently I'm only doing walking lunges with dumbbells but I want to start doing squats. Keep at it!

Just dropping in to say hi. I think you're awesome. I've read some of your other posts outside of this journal. I will be following you. I think you may be sick because you've been over training a bit. I may not know much, but I do know you've been doing an awful lot. I hope you feel better soon and I wish I were in Australia right now for the winter because it is a really hot summer here in the US. I don't even live in a state that you would typically think of as very warm, but Missouri is horrible. The humidity is at like 98% all year round which makes the heat feel hotter and the cold feel colder. SUCKS. Look forward to an update.

You are doing great and I really like your journal. I will be a follower. I have some questions for you if you don't mind. Why is it good to not eat wheat? I don't eat much but occasionally I make tacos with whole wheat wraps and I also eat some crackers that I'm sure have wheat in them. What are the benefits to not eating wheat? Does it help you get more ripped? Do you eat oats/quinoa/barley or any other grains. If not, again, why? The reason I'm asking is I'm trying to modify my diet and make it better... What's the difference between a pull up and a chin up? Also, my upper body is really weak. I would like to get on track to being able to do 1 pullup. What should I do to make this happen? (I'm a woman, btw) Your progress pics looks fabulous by the way. You had a good, lean body to begin with and I can already tell that you are changing in your most recent photos. Are you doing any cardio? Feel free to check out my journal. lol I have lots of different kinds of things in there. Not just about working out and eating.

Hey there, dear. I'm sorry you are having so much trouble lately. Maybe you injured yourself weight lifting the other day? And just didn't realize it until you tried to run. I'm so so sorry. I hate missing workouts. It really makes me depressed. I can only imagine the disappointment you must be feeling right now and I REALLY hope you can still train and do your marathon! I see that you're living in Ottawa! I'm next door in Missouri. I go to Kansas every once in awhile to visit my grandmother who is in Emporia. Just thought I would mention that.

workout was difficult today but I know it's my own fault for not fueling myself. 1 hour hard cardio (500 burned--realistically probably actually 350-400) 20 minutes weight lifting arms/chest/back: 5 different machines 3 sets of 15 on each one 450 crunches 50 walking lunges with 10 pound dumbbells in each hand My arms felt so weak today. They were burning so much and I was doing the same amount of weight that I've been doing for awhile. food: vitamins aren't food but to help with the absorption of my vitamins, I ate 1 tbsp of organic peanut butter 2 B Complex vitamins-I don't think the ones I have are vegan but I have a huge bottle. I'm going to finish them and not let them go to waste 400 mg Magnesium 1000 mg Acai 600 mg Calcium 400 IU of Vitamin D Meeting my mom for a lunch in a bit for sushi. I told her I was really struggling which is why she is meeting me. Of course, I'm getting veggie sushi--no worries there. lunch: getting the green peace roll--can't remember all the vegetables in it but it is yummy! tbc-I'll be back later. I picked up a magazine that's really vegan friendly from the local health food store. I loved it. It's called DeliciousLiving and they had tons of vegan and vegetarian recipes along with a lot of great articles about vitamins and how there are certain vitamins we should take for optimal health even if we have a perfect diet. That's why I started taking magnesium. The article said Fish Oil was really good too. I used take fish oil all the time because I have heart problems due to my eating disorder and I still have alot. I feel like I should take it because the fish for these pills have already been sacrificed and I bought them a long time ago when I wasn't a vegan. If you think you don't need vitamins like these, here's the preface of the article: "If you consistently eat a balanced, whole foods- based diet, do you really need to take supplements? If you're aiming for optimal health as you age, the answer is yes. Beyond a high quality multiviamin, which many experts recommend as a sort of nurtrional health insurance, a handful of supplements help fill in important gaps. 'Americans are often eating a lot but not getting enough,' say Robert Bonakdar, MD, of the Scripps Center for Integrative Medicine and editor of The H.E.R.B.A.L. Guide (Lippincott Williams & Wilkins, 2010). Shortfalls in essential nutrients tend to increase inflammation in the body, a state that is linked to a number of diseases, Bonakdar say. So what are the top supplements to add to your routine? Here are our experts picks." Fish Oil: "These healthy essential fatty acids support brain function and tame inflammation in the body. Supplementing daily with at least 1000 mg of omega-3 efa's may help prevent heart attacks. EFAs also may help slow aging, a recent study found that people with the highest blood levels of omega 3s had the least chromosome damage, a marker for aging and age related disease. By improving brain receptor function, omega 3s help protect the brain from stress. Flaxseed and plant based sources are beneficial but experts put fish oil first because of its brain supporting docosaheaenoic acid (dha). " Magnesium: "Americans get significantly less of this mineral through foods than they did 100 years ago, partly due to soil-nutrient depletion. Some gastrointestional diseases, diabetes and prolonged stress also may cause deficiency. Your body requires magnesium to absorb calcium so it's CRUCIAL to bone health. Also essential for muscles and nerves, hearth health and metabolism, magnesium may decrease heart attack risk in older men." Coenzyme Q10: "CoQ10 healps produce energy in the mitochondria of cells. Because the heart is one-third mitochondria, coQ10 is particularly crucial for heart health. As you age, your body naturally makes less CoQ10 so supplements are vital after age 50 (and useful before then) for supporting cardiac perfomance. What's more, cholestoreol lowering statin drugs may decrease the body's coQ10 levels. According to Bonakdar, people who suffer from headaches may also be coQ10 deficient. " Curcumin: "A powerful antioxidant extracted from the curry spice turmeric, curcumin boasts natural antibiotic abilities and powerful anti inflammatory and antir arthritic effects, says Rountree. It also protects against heart disease, may help prevent several cancers, and reduces the risk of neurodegerative diseases such as Alzheimer's, he says. It may reduce the production of pain causing chemicals in the body too. " Vitamin D: "Deficiency in vitamin D-estimated to affect more than 70 percent of Americans--can increase your risk of mortality from many causes, including heart disease and cancer. Why? Vitamin D plays a crucial role in the body's ability to fight disease. . A recent study found that vitmain D helps activate 'killer' T cells. Its also critical for bone health . Concerns about skin cancer tisk have contributed to deficiency because we block D promoting rays with sunscreen." Note the article says Vegans should take Vitamin D2 because D3 is derived from lanolin, the oil in sheep's wool. If anybody need more information about any of these, the article has info about the best form, the doses, and how to take them. Example--Vitamin D is fat soluble and only absorbed if you take it with fat in your stomach too so do what I do, take it with a tbsp of peanut butter. There's another article in here that I really enjoyed too about the best vegetables, fruits, beans & legumes, grains, nuts & seeds and well, animal protein which is a moot point for us so I'll leave that bit out. The article names the best foods in each category, says what nutrients you get from each food then tells what the 'health boosts' are. Which is just where they say what it does for your body and what types of diseases the food helps prevent. I'm only going to list the foods but if any of you have questions about the other two categories let me know. Top 6 Vegetables 1. Dark leafy greens: mustard greens, watercress, kale, turnip greens, collard greens, spinach, Swiss Chard and Arugula. 2. Bok Choy 3. Brussel Sprouts 4. Radishes 5. Bean sprouts 6. Red bell peppers Top 5 Fruits 1. Strawberries 2. Pomegranate juice 3. Tomatoes 4. Plums 5. Raspberries Top 4 Beans and Legumes 1. Lentils 2. Black Beans 3. Adzuki beans 4. Red kidney beans Top 5 Grains 1. Oats 2. Brown Rice 3. Sprouted Grain Bread 4. Barley 5. Quinoa Top 5 Nuts and Seeds 1. Brazil Nuts 2. Sunflower Seeds 3. Flaxseeds 4. Sesame Seeds 5. Pumpkin Seeds Just thought I would share!!! Tell me what you think please! Would love to get a discussion going in here!

pazios hahaha! You made me laugh. Entertaining, no? My problems cause a lot of unwanted drama in my life and I hate drama but unforutnately that's the way it goes. I'm glad you think my journal is awesome. That made my day. I'm using it beyond its purpose as a way to get all my thoughts and feelings on the table as well as keeping track of the basics. I'm glad you don't find it annoying. WOMM: I'm feeling much better today. Very relieved to be single again to say the least. I find myself in a difficult position with food still. Not really wanting to eat. I'm going to try to get a few protein shakes in today and I will be going to the gym in an hour or so. Today is my Friday at work and then I get 3 days off!! woot! Surprisingly I am not feeling sick or unwell physically even though I haven't been eating much. I've eaten about 750 calories yesterday and the day before...Be back later to update. love that smilie

I have so many thoughts in my head right now. Today has not been a good day or yesterday. I finally figured out what's going on with me. My meds are no longer working for me. I have atypical rapid cycling type 2 bipolar. Today I was insanely anxious. I was so anxious I wanted to kill myself. I was going out of mind. Then I got really calm for about literally 5 minutes. Then I got really depressed. Then I talked to a friend and felt a little better. Now I'm having racing thoughts. This is how my bipolar manifests itself. I'm angry with my therapist because she seems to think its okay if I exercise 2.5-3 hours a day and only eat 1500 calories. Obviously she has no faith in me to recover. When in fact she's feeding into my eating disorder by convincing me that everything is fine and she continues to say my weight is fine. Yeah, it's okay to weigh what I weigh? I don't really want to gain anymore weight, but again she's just feeding into my eating disorder. I actually am beginning to think she is not the therapist for me if she thinks this is the best I can do. I don't know if she's just being placating and trying not to push me too hard but I need someone to fucking push me or I really never am going to get better. Thank god for good friends who actually give me perspective on these things. Seriously. I'm so confused. Half the time I think I'm working out this much because I want to build muscle and get really healthy and the other part of me, the eating disorder part of me, is just exercising because I want to lose weight. I don't know which way is up right now. Furthermore, this boy I have been seeing totally feeds into my eating disorder too. He's overweight and trying to lose weight and obsessed with food himself so we spend a lot of time talking about food and exercise and he exercises with me sometimes too. And I don't have the energy or emotionally stability to deal with him and educate him on the ins and outs of my disorder. I broke up with him today because honestly the stress of being in a relationship is literally sending me over the edge and triggering me in all kinds of ways. Furthermore, he kind of creeps me out because he's over the top nice to everybody we meet including me and it's freaking me out. I can't believe he is genuine and if it is, it's just really weird and I don't like it. Furthermore, after 6 weeks of dating he's already telling me that he loves me and I feel really bad for breaking up with him but I honestly don't reciprocate the feelings at all, in fact, his personality is becoming really irritating to me. He's a goof ball but like he's stupid funny if you know what I mean and I don't like it and I don't find him funny at all. Everything just kind of came to a head today with the relationship. I can't do it anymore. I thought I liked him at first but now I really can't stand him. Like I seriously don't even want to be friends with him. I think I was just so desperate to have friends in this city that I kept hoping I would begin to like him and it's just cruel and mean for me to continue this relationship when I don't even really like him. Furthermore, I am obviously too emotionally fragile and too early in recovery from my eating disorder to even think about having a relationship with anyone which is what I told him when I broke up with him. I wasn't so mean as to tell him that I find him irritating or that his kindness is way too over the top and I don't find it genuine. I wouldn't dream of telling him that. I thought I was ready for another relationship but I can't handle it. Not when I just got my own place in July, not when I am just now beginning to support myself and work. I just can't do it. The stress of trying to handle this relationship has really sent me spiraling with the eating disorder. I really don't know what my true motives for exercising are. I've barely eaten anything the last 2 days and now I'm scared to eat. I really do not want to go backwards but I don't know if I can turn this around. I just want some relief from my own fucking thoughts. My thoughts and feelings and behaviors are so erratic and unpredicatable today and yesterday. I don't know what to do. I'm so confused.

aww katz. you're sweet. thank you! I'm taking today off from working out and the thought of it is killing me. I need to rest. This level of calorie restriction really takes it out of me. The only workout I'm going to do today is the New York City Ballet workout DVD. I took ballet for 15 years so this should be a cakewalk.

WOMM: (I posted this at the other eating disorder forum that I post at so ignore the part about TF) My supervisor called me today to ask me if I could change my schedule slightly and she's increased my hours which is excellent. I also will be getting hours at another group home--one that requires a little more work, which is super exciting. I love my job. I love what I do. I am excited to go to work today. I will be working by myself because my coworker just found out he needs a cardiac catheter put in so he will not be there. Last night I had to work by myself and I liked it because all the responsibilities fell to me. It made me feel like I am worth something. Like I can actually do something with my life. It was very validating. I am struggling very badly with body image and restricting today. The body image thing has been an ongoing thing for awhile especially since I have gained 15-17 pounds since June. So I have been going to the gym a lot to deal with my body image. If I am going to be eating and keeping food down, I want to turn my body into muscle and have a kick ass body. None of this flabby shit that I have going on. I am so grossed out by myself right now. I literally cannot stand being in my body. Forcing down the food involves daily tear fests and calls to all the supportive people in my life who can handle a nut case like myself at this time. I found out from my mom yesterday that she put me on the prayer list at her church in June. This is when I started turning things around for myself. It's obviously no coincidence. Just the right combination of factors coming into play: the prayers from God knows how many people, me being upset that my brain function has noticeably and considerably declined from this disorder since I graduated from college evidenced by my struggle to maintain a B average in law school and then quitting when I got too overwhelmed, me turning to my spirituality to help me get through this time and start recovering, me working in therapy. As I said, so far I have gained 15-17 pounds depending on the day, I have quit smoking completely (3 weeks clean tomorrow), only one binge/purge in August, drastically reduced my purging (now I purge 1-2 times a day usually long after the food has gone through my system so its just fluids coming up). I'm pretty fucking proud of myself. Right now I'm just trying to become a better person and undo the damage I have done in my real life and on TF. All I can do is work on my recovery and hope and think before I speak so I don't hurt anybody. I have a lot of remorse about what's happened on TF. I do not know the person I was when I pulled any of the shit that I have here. I'm so ashamed of myself and honestly it makes the self hate 100 times worse. I just want to be better and gain respect and integrity back. I seriously feel so lost but these last few weeks I really feel like I'm coming around and that my true self is just around the corner. I genuinely hope everyone is in a good, safe, happy place today. I wish nothing but the best for everybody on TF. I wish we could all get better but I know that people have to get better on their own watches, when they're ready, when they're own right combination of factors comes to a peak. Today's workout and food: today was an off day for working out, but I went anyway. 450 crunches of various kinds 60 minutes crazy cardio machine I do not know the name of (472 burned probably more like 400 since those machines are always off) stretching no weights today because I was supposed to take the day off food: 1 liter water no breakfast/no snack/no pre or post workout snack lunch- protein shake made with 1 scoop chocolate peanut butter spiru-tein protein powder, 1 cup 8th Continent Light Vanilla soymilk, 1 cup water, cinnamon, Hershey's sugar free chocolate syrup, ice planned for the rest of the day: snack- Back to Basics 1 servings vegan Sesame Tarrogon crackers dinner- 2 Quorn 'naked' cutlets snack- 2 servings vegan gummy bears I know my food sucks today but I have to restrict because I ate so much yesterday. I know---excuses, excuses.

I met a new friend at the gym today! VERY happy about that. I don't have a whole lot of friends in this city because I just moved here last year. cycled 45 minutes-220 burned not elliptical but like one 30 minutes-220 burned weight lifting arms/chest/back 20 minutes 50 walking lunges with 15 pound dumbbells in each hand 450 crunches of various kinds stretching breakfast: vegan english muffin with organic peanut butter and organic strawberry preserves So Delicious Coconut Milk Raspberry yogurt post workout: Chocolate Peanut butter Spirutein 1 scoop with 2 tbsp molasses, 1 cup 8th Continent Light Vanilla soymilk, ice lunch: kale salad with 2 roma tomatoes, scallions and 3 tbsp Annie's Roasted Red Pepper salad dressing snack: 1 serving sesame tarragon crackers planned for the rest of the day: Dinner: 1.5 cups white beans with onions, garlic, tomatoes and fresh basil snack: 1/4 cup sunflower seeds lots of vegan junkfood today: 2 Vegan cookies from the Chicago Vegan bakery-one snickerdoodle/one ginger molasses 2 nature's valley pecan granola bars sour mambas total: 3300 calories

breakfast: protein shake with 2 scoops chocolate peanut butter spiru-tein protein powder, 2 cups silk original almond milk, lots of ice postworkout: 1/4 cup edamame salad from whole foods: edamame, carrots, corn, red pepper, zucchini, cilantro 8 oz Bolthouse Green Goodness smoothie blended with ice lunch: white bean salad with red onion, roma tomatoes and fresh basil, a little olive oil a couple bites chocolate cake snack: 1 serving Sesame Tarrogon crackers dinner: 1.5 cups sticky brown rice with sesame seeds 1/4 cup roasted unsalted soynuts snack: sour mambas total: 1800 calories workout #1: 30 minutes elliptical/I do not know the name of this machine but its sort of like an elliptical more upwards motion of the legs 5 minutes biking 450 crunches of various kinds 50 walking lunges with 15 pound dumbbells in each hand weight lifting arms/back/chest Workout #2: 45 minute walk

wow that is an amazing transformation!! thanks for sharing!

okay thanks! I find running so much harder than any other cardiovascular exercise. I consider myself a pretty natural athlete though. I grew up dancing and running so I should know these things! lol

and now a picture of my love http://pictures.sprintpcs.com//mmps/RECIPIENT/003_5677ba858f5a7061_1/2?inviteToken=hEyrzz58zma5azM7zhoa&limitsize=258,258&outquality=90&squareoutput=255,255,255&ext=.jpg&iconifyVideo=true&wm=1

wow. You are very inspirational. My goal is to start running again once I am back in shape. Any tips for getting started?

I am counting calories because I'm supposed to get in a certain amount for my nutritionist and yes, it would be difficult to stop because I have been doing it for years. Even if I wasn't recording anywhere it would still be in my head. Basically, its virtually impossible to stop!

I'm sure I'm not working out correctly so if anybody has any tips feel free to throw those in a response: Currently, I am doing Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday on and Tuesday and Wednesday as rest days. Each day I do an hour of hard cardio. I break it up in 30 minute increments though. I do 30 minutes on an elliptical type machine (however, its not an elliptical. I don't know what the name of it is) Then I do 6 different weight machines that target the arms, chest and back. I do 3 sets of 15 on each machine. 50 walking lunges with 10 pound barbells 450 crunches of varying types that target the main abs, lower abs, and side abs. After doing weights and abs, I go back and do 30 minutes more of cardio. I do the same thing everyday which I know is wrong but right now I'm just trying to get and stay in the swing of things. This is my second week. Before that I haven't worked out since April. I am trying to gain muscle in my arms because they're really tiny (8 inches at the biggest part) and tone my legs and glutes. So strength as well as endurance because eventually I want to start running again.

^^^ Never heard of the benefits of L Carnitine but if what you're saying is true, I would like to try it!! I hope someone else responds who knows more!

TFraisier I live in a town of 40000 people. No crossfit anywhere to be found. My gym offers a lot of other classes. Maybe I will check the gym in the next town over where the population is closer to 100000. I read an article about crossfit in one of my magazines this month. I can't remember which one. I think it was Oxygen. Maybe I can design my own workout at my gym but I doubt that I'll be able to line up all those exercises in one portion of the gym and just rotate. Isn't that how it works? 4-6 different exercises. You do one for like a minute or so and then rotate to the next one and so on. marcina You'll be happy to know that I gained 3 pounds this week. I hope it was all muscle but obviously I can't be sure and I don't know where it went because I can't see any difference. I'm willing to maybe get up to 105 at the most but even that idea is very scary to me.

hey just dropping in to say hello! It looks like your diet is going well. I'm envious that you're so good at living low carb. I've never been able to do that.

yesterday: 30 minutes on the crazy cardio machine I do not know the name of 30 minutes weight lifting mostly arms, 50 walking lunges with 10 pound dumbbells in each hand, 450 assorted crunches stretching breakfast: protein shake made with Spiru-tein Chocolate Peanut butter protein powder, blackstrap molasses, cinnamon, almond silk milk, ice nature's valley oats and honey granola bar 1 liter water 20 oz diet mountain dew lunch: 2 vegan boca burgers with spicy bbq sauce 1 liter water snack: 2 serving raisonettes post workout: 2 vegan boca burgers 1 liter water later: protein shake made with spirutein chocolate peanut butter, 2 scoops, 2 tbsp real organic peanut butter, almond silk milk, ice total: 1700 Today so far: short workout--only 1 hour 15 minutes 45 minutes on the crazy cardio machine (400 burned) 450 crunches 50 walking lunges with 10 pound dumbbells in each hand breakfast: protein shake with spirutein chocolate peanut butter 2 scoops, almond silk milk, , real organic peanut butter, ice snack: strawberry banana smoothie 1 liter orange G2 lunch: hazelnut vegan cutlet from Whole Foods Vegan cous cous with fruit and nuts preworkout: protein shake made with 1 scoop chocolate peanut butter, 8 oz Bolthouse Mango Protein premade smoothie drink, blended with lots of ice--this was very thick and very strange 1 liter water dinner: 2 quorn naked cutlets huge salad with red leaf lettuce, kale, 1/2 cup garbonzo beans, sundried tomatoes, vegan parmesan cheese, capers, 2 roma tomatoes, Annie's organic red wine and olive oil vinaigrette total: 1850

I can't decide if I'm doing well or if I'm doing poorly. I've quit smoking completely. It's been a little over 2 weeks. I've almost completely stopped purging. I've purged once a day for the last couple weeks. Haven't been binging. Haven't bought food for binging in like a month or so. I've just purged randomly when I've been stupid enough to get on the scale with all my clothes and shoes on and when I've had a shit ton to drink and it's freaked me out. I am burning 500-1000 calories a day at the gym 5 days a week the last few weeks, but I full clearance from my nutritionist, medical doctor, and psychologist to do this as long as I eat what my nutritionist said I should eat, which is 1800 calories a day. He wants me to increase by 200 calories every two weeks until I am eating what I am burning. Its been a huge struggle to eat 1800 calories a day. Some days I eat 1000. Some days I eat 3000. The only way I'm comfortable eating is if I'm going to the gym and right now I'm just trying to get used to my body at this size and the only way I can justify staying at this size is if I go to the gym and do what I'm doing. This is fucking harder than anything I've ever done in my life. I just keep thinking I have to keep eating. I have to because having an eating disorder for 16 years so far is ridiculous and I just want to be normal. I can't have an eating disorder for my entire life. I can't weight less than 90 pounds for my whole life. It's just a ridiculous notion at this point. I'm honestly trying to make my body and mind as healthy as possible. I want to regain my cognitive functions, my rationality, my integrity, my intelligence. I want to have a life. I want to fall in love. Maybe I want to have children sometime before I'm 35. I just want to be fucking normal and I'm so frustrated with myself right now. I am just struggling so much to keep my head above water. I'm taking 3x the reccommended amount of calcium everyday because I don't want to have osteopenia anymore. I'm taking a vitamin b complex everyday because I want my brain to return to normal. I'm eating a mostly vegan diet except for the candy habit that I can't seem to kick. I'm eating as much protein as humanly possible on an 1800 calorie a day diet because I'm genuinely trying to build muscle and get strong. I'm pissed that I have naturally skinny arms because I'm working them out really hard with weights and they are not changing in size and yet my legs are naturally pretty muscular. I'm just so incredibly frustrated with this whole recovery process. Its so slow and agonizing. Each day, each meal, each bite is a constant battle in my head. I'm racked with guilt about all the food I'm eating and no matter how much time I spend in the gym, it doesn't really make it that much easier. My moods are all over the place. In the morning, I'm in a fabulous mood, but by nightime I'm so depressed. I'm pushing my boyfriend away because I don't want to do anything sexual at all. It sounds bad but I can't even handle kissing him. I can't stand to be touched. I don't understand what's going on because he really is everything I could ever want from a man, but he is too nice to me. I don't deserve it. I feel like a horrible disgusting person and I don't deserve to be treated well. I don't know if that is an extension from my last relationship where sometimes I was treated like a queen and other times I was treated like shit, but I feel like I am so fucked up right now.

60 minutes cardio: burned 450 30 minutes weight lifting: arms mostly 50 walking lunges with dumbbells 450 crunches of various kinds breakfast: So Delicious Coconut Milk Raspberry yogurt with sunflower seeds: 250 preworkout protein shake with Spirutein chocolate peanut butter protein powder, 1 cup almond milk, 2 tbsp blackstrap molasses, cinnamon, ice: 300 lunch: 3 Boca Burger Vegan burgers: 210 dinner: huge salad with red leaf lettuce, kale, 2 roma tomatoes, 1/2 cup garbonzo beans, 1 vegan boca burger, 4 tbsp whole foods brand tomato basil dressing: 350 snack: 2 Earnest Eats Almond Trail Mix granola bars (420) snack: homemade smoothie made with Silk Almond Milk, Bolthouse Green Goodness smoothie, handful of frozen cherries (150) total: 1680, 85 grams of protein

wow I wish I could read this thread!

I really want to post pictures, but I can't upload photos to this forum. Furthermore, my right click on my mouse isn't working so I can't use the properties function to get the proper links. At first I just thought my laptop mouse was just dying and the right click button was not working. Well I got a new mouse and the right click button still doesn't work. I can't seem to find anything wrong with my setting in my control panel through the mouse tab or the internet options tab. Can anybody help me because I can't even get an avatar!